The following is a cosmic account of my personal interpretations & feelings from “The Book of Vulnerability”, found through the portal of the mind on an old bookshelf, containing the entire library of consciousness…
After this channeled description, I will go deeper, from a more reasoned and human perspective. I hope you enjoy.
It is not complicated. It is not a lengthy book, but it is an important one. Perhaps if we think that a general safe rule of life is to always do the things that make us feel exposed and uncomfortable then that is the right thing to do. But yes, always use discernment. Allow the winds of change to strip away the masks and the armour and the weapons. And it should be easier to do this now, these days, these times on earth. Vulnerability, sharing from your heart as the eternal child, is the way forward. Fundamentally, it is voluntarily showing others what you made for them to see. It is crafting a perfect flower in your heart and gifting it to another. Vulnerability is letting your inner child shine through your open heart space and letting them be seen by the world, and even though it might feel raw and scary, finding the courage to do it anyways. This is the essence of being human. Despite all signs pointing to prove that it is unsafe to share from your heart, every single reason you have gathered throughout your entire life time that it is unsafe to show people who you truly are, do it anyways. Despite the fact that you’ve maybe hidden away your true nature, your true self, so well that maybe it’s even hidden from you, try anyway. Yes this willingness to show our most precious part of our soul it is the key to being human. The willingness to show up and try despite all signs pointing the other way because you know in your heart what is right and what is true. Do that thing. Do not start to turn around and do not fear. Move forward, always move forward, move ahead, keep going, keep opening, open more, and more again. Yes this is the essence of being human. Despite the pain, keep going. Despite the grappling fear that you will be rejected, keep going. Do not stop. Despite your crippling doubt that you’re not good enough, keep going. Do not stop.“
Contemplations: What is Vulnerability?
Vulnerability is an essential element of living a human life. And like much else on earth, it is a contradiction…
In order to get what we crave most – true, deep self acceptance & love – we must do the thing that feels most unintuitive.
We must risk ‘death’ and expose our tender, pink fleshy bits in the hopes that we are caught and not thrown to the wolves.
The pay off? We get tougher, more self assured, more filled with the indestructible nature of love, because each time we do this we bust through the mind’s blockades that stop us from sharing our hearts with the world.
We find that when we share from our heart to another, even if we feel so scared we’d rather do anything else in that moment, we get gifted with believing in ourselves a little more. Loving ourselves a little more deeply. Realising in an instant, a little bit more, that no one, and nothing, can really hurt us. And when we push ourselves to our edge of comfort through sharing the making’s of our heart, we sink a little deeper, and a little deeper again, in the knowing that we are, in fact, indestructible by nature… In these moments, we are the courage of the lion, rolling over and allowing our bellies to be scratched by God.
For many, the inception of this journey starts by scanning one’s external landscape first to find the answers we seek. But then eventually, and not without the help of all the prior searching and seeking outside of ourselves, we come to understand that to find what we are seeking, we must need only turn our eyes within to find proof that God exists…
(And what is God? To me, God frequency feels like divine curiosity, acknowledgement of all that is, acceptance, peace, LOVE, and reverence. How nature feels after big rain. Soothed. A certain serenity. A silent knowing of Oneness, felt so deeply in each cell of our being, we feel the cells in our bodies breathing in rhythm with the cells of the leaves on the trees. We find a resonance with the sound of a passing car, a familiar warmth from the body of our pet leaning against our leg, a joy in the cool purity of water sliding down our throat… That is God to me. Feeling ourselves in everything at once.)
It is same with vulnerability. It is not these grand outside gestures that are needed to strengthen our sense of self, but more it becomes – how safe do we feel showing the world who we really are underneath it all? How safe do we feel sharing from our inner little girl or boy, who is alive and sometimes scared of what might happen if they speak up?
Vulnerability is an acknowledgement, reverence and respect for, our inner child.
Can we choose to no longer abandon our little girl or boy? To trust that what she has to say is important and safe to share? And instead of losing ourselves in such a precious moment, can we stay present with all aspects of ourselves and not abandon ship? When we stay with ourselves, we get to practice honouring ourselves as we detach from the response or reaction of the other. We get to reprogram in that moment and deny taking responsibility for the other, while only taking loving responsibility for ourselves.
Vulnerability is all this. A key, a conundrum, a paradox, a wish. A wish from our soul to accept all parts of ourselves, to love the experience of being human, to appreciate the safety of this earth that we are of… to find the sweetness in the weakness and the depth in the breadth…
Life becomes much easier when we stop trying to shield & conceal the child inside and instead give them the space & love they deserve. We are all worthy of this love, and it starts with us…
With love… Mama Nic 😉
