I did a live coaching session in my business mentor Kimberly Maska’s Facebook Group “Spiritual Biz Success” last week. It was an hour long, and I was the first person in our Coaching certification program to do the live session. I was a bit nervous, understandably so.
The woman I selected for the hour long coaching session was great – really open and trusting. We had a great connection and I could relate to exactly what she was grappling with at the time.
What I didn’t anticipate (I mean, how could I?) was the next 24hrs of intense energetic purging from my body. It felt like nerves, anxiety, and fear of certain death all rolled up into one helicopter ball that would move back and forth from my Sacral to my Heart Chakra.
I did loads of different clearing techniques through the day to help move the sensations through my body. One was from #clearyourshit and showed “Humiliation” as the emotion that was present in the moment.
The penny dropped. Of course. All the themes and patterns surrounding humiliation through my life started to domino in front of my eyes from bullying to extreme disempowerment and self doubt for many years.
Humiliation is an interesting wound, isn’t it? It’s right there with #rejection, #abandonment, #shame and #guilt – all super low vibration emotions – the lowest! But humiliation is the one that wears the mask and makes us flush red in the face. It sits at the neck right over the voice box like a ball gag, hindering us from saying anything too brazen or standing out. We wouldn’t dare. It’s just not safe.
So, after this seemingly innocent (yet public) coaching experience, my body decided it was time to purge humiliation. It’s gone. The limiter’s off, and I no longer give a f if someone disagrees with what I say. If you’re anything like me, you’ll know how HUGE a shift this is. It always astounds me how all these shifts we make are always right under our nose. Like, just RIGHT THERE. If they weren’t so painful, it’d be funny! Heck, it’s still funny. If we can’t laugh at ourselves, what the hell is the point?
Can you relate to feelings of humiliation? Do they still haunt you? Let me know in the comments 👇🏼
Much love,
Your Mother Nemaya 🌹
